I try to embrace white space and paint “neatly” but when I am done, I almost always don’t like what I have created. And then I scribble and “mess it up” to feel more like me.
It’s almost like a visual representation of the life I am “expected” to lead and the one I’ve decided to make for myself.
It’s messy, it’s unappealing to most, it’s probably even sloppy…but it feels authentic to me. And isn’t that all that matters? How my art makes ME feel…I don’t do it to appease anyone. I definitely don’t do it to become like someone else.
My art is purely my way of being…it relieves me of my “living.” It’s a magical place where I can get lost and feel unencumbered.
When I make paintings like these in my watercolor journal, it’s never with the intent of sharing. But I share here to encourage you to make the art you WANT to make, not what you feel like you HAVE to make.
No one has to see what you’re creating…keep it a secret; try something out that you have always wanted to and “fail” at it. Do it because you want to. Because you need to. For you.
Not everything I touch is amazing but it doesn’t have to be. I make because I want to make. And that is enough.